Sunday, July 29, 2007
its monday.. so im not really in the best of moods but hey, when am i in a good mood anyway? haha i'm the grouch of the group la.. =)
just had a nice long lunch break.. my usual lunch khaki is down with the flu (at least thats what i tink is the problem) so i spent some alone time.. took a walk down to IKEA and decided to browse around.. haha i'm one who gets carried away at NTUC and Watsons, so IKEA kept me busy for quite a bit.. left with some purchases which would have seen more of the world if they were left at IKEA.. haha, i have soooo many things i've bought in the past, which i planned to put around my room.. but somehow they're all still sitting pretty in the IKEA plastic bags from the day they 'set foot' in my house! Well, one day when i finally HAVE A LIFE, i'm really gonna do up my room as planned! its taken me what, 2 years? ive been doing everything in stages and in like 6 months intervals or something.. first the bed, then the cupoboards, then the curtains.. sigh im only left with the final touch with all my pretty decorative items.. i guess i just need to be home long enough..
weekend zoomed past once again.. dance was.. tiring. i'm walking funny coz every move hurts and i'm so sleep deprived i've mastered the art of sleepin with my eyes open (i wish).. but tis ok, considering how time seems to fly these days, 3 weeks shouldnt be too far away.. i wonder if i'll actually miss it when its over.. i swear, we humans are a funny bunch.. even the most nightmarish parts of our lives will turn to sweet experiences once they're over.. i guess thats the key word, an experience.. and you never know just what it feels like, till you go through it yourself.. If i had not been part of the production, would i have felt a great sense of relief? Or would i look at the dancers in envy? probbaly the latter, since i would've had no idea what they're going through..
Oh well, its not really that bad.. I love odissi and the teacher's amazing and i can only grow with this experience so i'm gonna quit (try to at least) whining and start to view everything under a positive light.. I believe fate has a big part to play in everything, so i'm probably in this for a reason.. Whatever the reason may be, whether i realise it one day or not.. i'm just gonna live and let live and for tomorrow i shall not hold much thought to. I'll just let it.. happen.
The heart has its reasons which reason knows not of..
