My pain, your thrill
my pain, your thrill.
my heart, beats still.
your eyes, unaware.
glazed, they dont care.
my soul, do you hear?
an ensemble of pleas, then fear.
shadows, they start to surround.
paranoia in memories, haunt up n down.
walls start to erect, the pain disappears.
it becomes rock, cold, steel, the hurt then adheres.
my center resides, a fortress that hides.
i dont feel. its safe. my spirit i bind.
a door, in the darkness.
a flaw, in my sanct?
a light in its mildness.
i hear a beat, i stop my rant.
say my name.
say it again.
i start to remember.
who i was, and from there i came.
a glimmer, afar.
a ripple of a star.
a shimmer of hope.
like a druggie from dope.
could there be another?
and this time, my dreams not plunder?
and perhaps i could be happy.
and rejoice in his arms truly?
a step i take.
another i dare.
the shadow steps in.
i stop in its lair.
where do you go?
to be hurt once more?
to shed another tear?
the shadows, they to me leer.
and so i take.
three steps back.
where the walls stand firm.
and strength they do not lack.
another stands solid.
with light on his side.
be your life void?
of sun, sand and tide?
of joy and warmth,
of bliss that comes free?
oh why don't you come join,
this ocean that surrounds me?
oh it looks fabulous,
this free you speak of.
it cannot come this easy,
its something to only be dreamt of.
the sun warms my feet,
the seas my hands.
to immerse myself fully,
i would drift away from land.
another glances, seconds into my eyes.
these words he says, my body he ties.
and you swim and you fall, you cut and you bawl.
how else do you learn, how else do you crawl?
to risk is to venture,
far away from where its safe.
the sunrise you'd capture,
rapture you'd rave.
what then will it be fair maiden?
what would your heart say if it were free?
to be a captive, within your very soul?
or to shout out across the very seas.
so beautiful, so rare.
my dear fawn, will those bonds you not tear?
break down those walls, it's okay, come see,
and in return, my love, i give my heart, to thee.